happy new year and stuff like that..
My note to self from the last year for the new year.
so much has happened since the last time i wrote. we moved into a new home, traveled to new countries, lost loved ones, have seen the u.s show signs of implosion, and i am half way through a book (big deal for me). it’s a mixed bag of things. but such is life i guess. not to mention people’s obsession with ai. we tend to get stuck on such trivial things. at the end of the day decide what resonates and what doesn’t and move on. we have such a strange all or nothing attitude towards things when that is rarely how things work. everything is so complex. so please simplify. don’t feel the need to take it all on at once. why? we are making ourselves angrier. there’s enough to be angry about in the world. sustainability has been my word for a bit now. doing things in a way that makes sense for me. right now i am not in a flow state with many things. but working on how do i get there? that is the question to myself. how can I set up my days and build my life so that i am in constant flow state with each thing that i do. doing more than living but flowing from one thing to the next. i’ve achieved flow state a few times recently. just random moments of flow state that i am becoming aware of. it goes something like this… do something > try my best > reflect. in trying my best that means for example - if i am reading a book and the “something” that I am trying to “do” is read 1 chapter before moving onto my next thing i will sit and read and see how it goes without judgment. if i find that i am struggling and have to reread the same paragraph over and over again i will just simply note it in the process. no actions or pivots or anything just kinda note it and push through. at the end, after reading the entire chapter to the best of my abilities, i sit and think about how easy or difficult that was and why. was it where i was sitting? the time of day? what was going on around me? where was my mind drifting too? all of those type of questions. and the try again with a new approach until i find what works for me and gets me into that flowwww state. until it no longer works.
that took a left turn but kinda does explain where my mind is at currently. i am in the mode of trying and testing. so i will be doing just that. i have a lot to talk about and alot of things have happened recently to me and outside of me that i am going to use this website as an outlet for. everything i mentioned I will talk about. but for today i am done. this felt good, hit a bit of a flow state. will try again and let you/me know.
oh and another example of trying. this video shows my check-ins at the gym over the last 10 months or so. i have been trying to find the routines that work for me to set up for flow state. as you can see the yellow dots are scattered throughout but there are small moments of “oh this is working”. 3 days a week Monday-tuesday-wednesday. i think that’s the sweet spot of flow. will check back in on that. but i thought it was just a cool visualization of trying different things until you land on what works.
